In which Marvin witnesses a war on the saints by the saints in the house of God. 
The other day I received the following e-mail from Susanne, a woman who found out her some years ago that her husband has same-sex attractions. I felt so moved by her words that I asked her permission to share them with you on the blog. I (recently) saw your Doin Time... and I was the one who asked about your wife during the discussion period that followed. I just read your thoughts on What About the Spouse ....and I can say, most women who find out their husbands are gay feel ALL of those things you wondered about....some in more degrees than others... When my husband was dragged out of the closet because of his irreverent, immoral, and amoral behavior that our, then, 14 and 16 year old sons had to find on our home computer, I went into the closet. I didn't know what to pray for.... Do I pray that this will go away? Do I pray that he could go back to the way things were in our family before we knew about him,? Do I pray that I could go back to the way things were? After all ,...
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I can only imagine that things feel tense and/or embarrassing right now. I commend you for working through the dry mouth and anxiety to stay for the whole sermon, and I'm so glad Soon was there with you.
And it can certainly get surreal when you know that controversy and prayers are swirling around, both completely wrapped up in each other.
I used to attend events in Christian schools and churches from time to time where other members of my family were active. Strangers greeted me by name--a few even said that they had been praying for me--so apparently I had been a topic of conversation!
I learned that it could be empowering to be present for and with my family members there, my head held high, and not get obsessive about what anybody else might be thinking of me.
At any rate, Marvin, please be gentle with yourself. Even if you've decided you wouldn't do a letter-writing campaign again, you acted in good faith. It won't surprise me, even if things are strange at church for a while, some good rises up out of the craziness.