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Marvin SHOCKER!!!

You must listen to this Marvin post in which Marvin, well just listen. This changes everything.
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Anonymous said…
Marvin! When I asked whether you had any friends to share a silly DVD with a couple days ago, it wasn't meant to be code for a sponge bath with benefits!

I know it's disappointing to you, but please be gentle with yourself, OK?

One of the things I agree with ex-gay leaders about is that guys need good, supportive, non-sexual friendships. Maybe that's what you can work on with Stuart, especially since it sounds like things were dysfunctional for you two as a couple.
6:04 PM
Willie Hewes said…
Don't be too hard on yourself, Marvin. Everyone makes mistakes and does things they shouldn't. The question is whether you can return to the faith you had before, and forgive yourself as God would forgive you.

All the best.
7:29 AM
Anonymous said…
Oh my!

Marvin, I don't know what to say. Do you still love Stuart? Do you think maybe Stuart still loves you?
8:35 AM
Anonymous said…
Hey, don't be so hard on yourself.

All right, you gave in to temptation. Everyone does. That's why dieting is so f#!@ing hard =) So, you gave into temptation *once* w/ the gay thing...if you believe it's wrong, then just try not to do it again. Christianity is supposed to be about redemption, right? Everyone sins; the question is whether or not you redeem yourself.

Wait, I was supposed to be gloating, wasn't I? F@$&! Maybe next time.
9:32 PM
Jonathan said…
Stuart reappears...and gives an apparently wonderful sponge bath. I know this is difficult for you because you've made this "change" in your life...but I wonder, maybe he's supposed to be in your life. I know...it's hard to hear, but...something to think about. Sounds to me like there is still a spark.

But don't beat yourself up!! Things happen when they do because they are supposed to. Perhaps you and Stuart should plan on spending a little time together...not in a situation where it will turn...well, you know...but rollerblading or something. Get to know him again! Maybe it's time!

j.
12:32 PM
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12:32 PM
Valorie said…
My heart bleeds for you, Marvin. I've gotten very behind on hearing your posts, and have just tonight been catching up. I don't know where your life is NOW, but I could hear the heartbreak in your voice. I've come to love and care about you after hearing your wonderful posts for so long. I do think you have deluded yourself, that you have been gay your whole life, and that GOD MADE YOU THAT WAY, and that HE LOVES YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.

Months late, but there it is.

Valorie from just outside of Seattle Washington
mother of a gay son and 3 straight kids too
8:55 AM
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