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Being True to Yourself

Don't ask me why I am up at 4:15 am, perhaps overtired or it was the raw fresh corn on the cob I ate right before bed (so awesome)

In my early morning surfing, I came across an opinion piece printed in yesterday's The Gateway, University of Nebraska's student newspaper. Michael McManus writes about the importance of being an individual by sharing how his own willingness to bow to others' expectations even led him into gay reparative therapy.
I’m not ashamed to admit that I was a loser for the majority of my feeble 22 years. I was what I like to call a people-pleasing pushover, “PPP” for short. I was the guy who always tried to fit in, picked up the bill at restaurants and said “yes” in situations that obviously deserved a simple ”no” response. I was a PPP professional. It was an easy way to make friends and an even easier way to lose the small amount of personal identity that I had.

I think I realized the severity of my situation when I told my parents I would go to counseling to try and turn “un-gay.” I knew it wasn’t going to work, but who was I to disappoint? I put a smile on my face, gave my parents false hope, and let the counselor explain to me why I was wrong. I remember sitting there, listening intently. I imagine I was experiencing the same thing that guests on Dr. Phil go through. They know the guys full of shit, but they pretend to be interested. I was such a pushover. First of all, my ex-gay counselor was gayer than me and second of all, I knew everything he was saying was complete crap. I left the session drained and exhausted. It was that same day that I became comfortable in my own skin; I became an individual.

Read Above all else; stay true to yourself

Comments

Just catching up with you. Raw food, eh? WEIRDO!! LOL

They won't let us immuno-compromised folk eat food like that. Too full of possible bacteria or something. Also, I need lots of animal protein, and no way am I going to eat raw chicken. EWWWW!
SoulPony said…
uh huh!
Willie Hewes said…
I brought up the raw business with the boyfriends, (we've started dieting together) but the only way they were up for it was if they could have raw steak as well. :D

I like the post. PPP, yeah, I know some of those. ¬_¬
Dude, that sweet corn is going to look exactly the same coming out as it did going in. BLEURGH!

Good article tho :)
This raw diet ROCKS! I have been having the best bowel movements of my life! Really, and if my dearest friends hadn't already warned me that they would desert me if I did it, I nearly posted a photo of a magnificent specimen.

Yeah, Steve, stay away from the raw chicken. That stuff will kill you!
WordK said…
Raw sweet corn is one of the greatest things ever! My grandfather grew sweet corn, and there were few things as tasty as an ear I had picked off the stalk, rinsed with the hose, and bit into while still in the garden. The sugar has no time to start turning to starch.

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